Saturday, September 30, 2006
i dunno wad has got into me.oh mine im so dead.haiiss eams cumin im rather stress over it.will i or will i not?uh oh.im so damn dead.
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6:43 AM
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Thursday, September 28, 2006
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that
I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand
I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye
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10:21 AM
so many things are happenin nowadaes.can anyone tell me wad i exactly wants in life?haiiss i jux feel veri veri sad.i have so many things to sae.but it seems like no one noes how i feel.n im so afaid of saein it out.i will tear.ive been keepin it all tomyself for so many weeks.i keep on runnin away from those problems tt i muz face.i noe i have to be strong.but i jux cant go on.i feel so empty.haiiss.im solost.so so lost.
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10:00 AM
so many things are happenin nowadaes.can anyone tell me wad i exactly wants in life?haiiss i jux feel veri veri sad.i have so many things to sae.but it seems like no one noes how i feel.n im so afaid of saein it out.i will tear.ive been keepin it all tomyself for so many weeks.i keep on runnin away from those problems tt i muz face.i noe i have to be strong.but i jux cant go on.i feel so empty.haiiss.im solost.so so lost.
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10:00 AM
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
no one noes how much hurts esther has given me.i dunn wanna tink of her.i am hurt.im scare.im afraid.she make my life so miserable.i sae tt i tink of her i will feel sad.why cannot sae tt mehhx?i scare im not yet over esther or wad.haiis i realli veri veri scare.renee ask me todae if esther did like me before.i dunno how to reply.i watch mvp.den i jux feel so sad.cuz last time i tok to esther owax watch tt.im realli afraid.everythin seems so sudden.i realli wanna cry out veri soon.if onli esther hasnt cum into my life.having to tink of all this,im goin mad soon.i dun wanna tink anymore.maybe all this shouldnt have happen.im actualli happi with goin on with my life.or am i jux kidding myself?wad am i doing?i hope i will be okay.can anyone guide me?esther realli hurt me badly!i wanna break down soon!
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7:56 AM
i veri sad lei.haiis if i were to tink of how my kuku suffer,gosh i cant bear to see her sufferin.i realli wan to help her.oh well i will try de.but i dunno how to.i dunno wad to do.ive go thru this before.but my situation is not as saddening as my kuku's de. i jux wan kuku to have the best.n to be happy.nth more den tt.i will do anything for her. AND I LOVE MY HUBBY.i love my kuku butt in law oso loh.yupp. im keepin sum heavy burdens in me rite now.haiiss..no one noes except dunno lei..im afraid im realli veri veri afraid.im afraid i will cry.haiiss
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7:26 AM
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
my mp4 lost lei!but nvmx bahhs.maybe its meant to be lost.oh well...but its okay.hahas anywae.oh well...many things are happening.tml school's gonna start.its a brand new dae again =x
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7:30 AM
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
many thins have been happenin in my life nowadays... mayb i should juz explain it in a easier way.. oh well, firstly, i and janelle hasnt been contactin each other. i tried not to think abt it. ever since the day he left, my life was juz so incomplete. everythin didnt go smoothly.. mayb i'm juz being very naive myself... i shouldn have tot tat everythin wil gose my way.. i shouldn even have tot of those princess dreams.. i'm no body to think it tat way.. i'm nth compared to other.. i've neglected many tat cares for mi.. and nw my worse nitemares came true.. other are doin the same to mi.. y so ppl have to go on with such obstacles in life? my heart's filled with sorrow and melancholy rite nw.. ppl do come and go in our life.. so i'm learin to accept the fact.. i have to be strong and welcome other new ones to come.. i only wanted a sense of belongin.. but is it to hard to ask for? i've nv expected tat everythin will turn out wrong.. so damn wrong.. wil everyone tel mi tat i'm juz thinkin too much.. nth is going wrong.. i'm juz the sensitive one.. wil anyone show mi the way out? i'm lost and trap in this dark world.. how am i suppose to get out? depressions are overcomin mi once more.. i dun wanna let all this become a part of my life.. i simply juz hate havin my life... hai....
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3:32 PM
im not sure if im goin to stay over in renee house lei.alamak.hahas cuz im feeling quite sick loh.how...haiiss.anywae...i love band!im goin to be mad for band.band means alot to me.i cant bear to leave lahhs.haiiss.im jux being bored now lahh.i havent even complete my homework lahhs...i need to complete it first lohh.hahas...anywae,SUPER MARIO ROX N SO DO PERCUSSION BAND!
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1:13 AM
im not sure if im goin to stay over in renee house lei.alamak.hahas cuz im feeling quite sick loh.how...haiiss.anywae...i love band!im goin to be mad for band.band means alot to me.i cant bear to leave lahhs.haiiss.im jux being bored now lahh.i havent even complete my homework lahhs...i need to complete it first lohh.hahas...anywae,SUPER MARIO ROX N SO DO PERCUSSION BAND!
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1:13 AM
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Friday, September 08, 2006
im putting all my past hurts behind.let me noe tt u are the one who can brighten up my dae.dun ever hurt me like how others does.dun u ever dare flirt behind my back.i wont ever wan to tink tt esther came into my life b4.let me noe tt im jux thinkin too much for the past few daes.
st anthony percussion band rox!
upcomin performin is on 4th dec.
at toa payoh HDB hub.=]
through thick n thin,
we will stay as one.
band has change alot.ever since the seniors left.now tt we are the seniors,its time to grow up.new piece=]canon in d!!!yeah hahas.im playin vibes + triangle+claves. den muz run here n dere. oh well...suddenly missin band.
will our band be the same as before?
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9:46 AM
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